well here i am again writing a journol that only one person will ever read but im not sure about any thing, im really confused and i need help, ..... someone to talk to but i have no one who understands where im coming from and i really hurt jenny but i never meant too. it was horrible, what i said to her im surprised she talked to me after that but even still i dont know what to do, you see im stuck with this problom, im currently in love with 3 girls... jenny, julie, and celeste... but 1 i cant trust... 1 doesent wanna date me... the other is taken but then i found out she doesent love me at all or her love faded... im so fucked up inside and i dont know what to do, my heart left shatterd and then scattered across the world its so aggrivating i wish i could fix this mess the one girl i really want back, doesent care, doesent love me, doesent want to be with me, wheather or not this is read im going to keep writing because its a way to let out my feelings... if someone does read this, please guide me, i lost... i feel as if i dont want to live but suicide is not my thing... i was always told every life has a wonderful meaning but... i cant find mine... i was also told that it get better but yet again i have yet to had this to be proven true... its always getting worse i just need someonee to talk to and help me out... anyone at all?.... so lonely....